I've enjoyed my time with F.E.A.R. so far.

I remember when I was on the verge of becoming yet again inactive a few months ago. I turned to war clans, hoping to once again reignite my love for Roblox. After USMC became inactive, I turned to F.E.A.R., partly as a test to see if the bad reputation meant that the clan itself was horrible.

I was proved wrong on many levels, obviously. While the clan was full of kids, I appreciated the mature side of F.E.A.R.. I joined over 3 months ago on Calmitain, and while I quickly rose through the ranks, I was dissatisfied with how basic my alt was. I switched to my main 2 months after I joined, and with Shaga's help, I switched ranks with my alt.

In the past, all I would do was build and attend trainings sessions for F.E.A.R.. Today, my relationships with F.E.A.R. are somewhat complicated. I'm active as always, however my attention no longer goes toward attending training sessions. I do attend them, however it's rare and I almost always end up leaving in the middle of it. I focus more on hosting them. I feel that I need to raise my leadership qualities, and the more I host, the better I get. I also attend raids occasionally.

I have for some time been trying to get into RF. When I took on training with Imparity, my skill rose sharply and I was ready to get into RF. I waited for about a week and was never noticed. Then my skills quickly began to deteriorate. I went from becoming very unpredictable to very predictable. I lost all of my duels. I trained hard, but I never got my old skills back. Today I am a shadow of how great at sword fighting I once was. I'm still a great challenge for most, however if I am worthy for RF is debatable. I've given up trying to get in.

I've also accepted the fact that I'll likely become inactive before I'm even noticed by ATC, if I'm ever noticed. I'm a very basic builder. Almost all of my time goes toward gameplay design instead of details, so my places have little to look at, yet the lag is almost non-existent.

My relationship with my divisions is also odd. I'm very active on the walls, yet I always seem to miss their activities. I've been in MP for some time now, yet I have just joined Honors.

I understand that none of this will benefit me in real life. I'm a Senior in High School now, and I'm questioning why I still play this game. It's lost all of its appeal. The reasons why I stay on are:
1. I'm still aiming for Colonel. If Colonel makes a difference in my F.E.A.R. career and activity, then it will be worth it. If not, I'll give it up.
2. I have new apprentices to train. The joy of teaching has stayed, and I look forward to training them.
3. I have made many new friends, and I appeal to the High Ranks. I've worked hard, and I don't want to give it all up just yet.

I predict that sometime in my senior year, I'll leave for a long time, maybe even for good. I have many new things to achieve, and Roblox is holding me back. I'm not leaving yet, however it will be soon. Right now I'm somewhat active, yet also inactive. I'm not in-game that much. Hosting a training is still a very large appeal to me, so I log on for that almost every day. I feel bad about pestering the high ranks, however what else am I to do?

The truth is, I want to quit. I'm done with this game. I just can't bring myself to do it yet. I have a driver's license to earn, a job to get and a Senior year to pass. Being on a game full of kids... as a 17-year-old...

This is an early good-bye. I don't know when I'll leave. It will be soon though. Probably after I'm done teaching my apprentices. Thank you for reading.

Dun leave pl0x.

Watcha, even you have to admit Shledeltsky is a big n00b.

JoshiiMoshii wrote:Watcha, even you have to admit Shledeltsky is a big n00b.

It's true, especially when he made SFOTH IV BC only.

I had a talk with Simba. Thanks to him, I just might stay. I'll give it a few days before deciding though.

Oyus!

I have decided to stay.

Powerblade wrote:I have decided to stay.

Yaay

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SONIC, I deeply respect you... but on a thread like this? Really, sir?

Powerblade wrote:SONIC, I deeply respect you... but on a thread like this? Really, sir?

That was quite funny. :3

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Yus.